Okay, so I wonder how much I'm going to be pushed by my own body in order to see just how much I can take and maintain my sanity? When will the insurance company FINALLY approve the medication I need to take care of a serious situation that is wreaking havoc on my body and my life? It's been over a month now. OVER a month, and I still can't get the medication approved. This country, because of Obama, has gone right to hell. It really has. And this is only ONE of the ways it's gone downhill.
At any rate, I seem to swing between being completely angry one moment about this, to feeling utterly abandoned in the next. I don't know HOW to feel about anything anymore, and as long as I have to deal with the symptoms I'm not going to be the most rational or patient of people; it's been going on for too long and I'm flipping tired.
Making demands on me--this is really what I'm getting at. I need to heal, and while the AIH is being addressed it's simply not enough. You can't just ignore some things, and this thing I'm dealing with is something that will not allow me the luxury of pretending it's not there, happening, and ruining my life at the moment. And no, I'm not being melodramatic here. It's the truth.
Now, I will admit one of the biggest mistakes I've been making is spending WAY too much time on social media. My bright idea was to avoid watching too much tv, and in doing that I've replaced tv with reading political articles, reading and getting caught up in tweets on Twitter, watching the disconnected posts flow through my FB feed. I can admit that's a dumb thing for me to do. And what can I do instead?...
Well, I know what I should do, so it's not a matter of ignorance but rather bad choices. I'm aware. Instead of getting caught up in all the political hot-headedness or trying to amuse myself with funny pictures and such... and we all know this is the bulk of FB posts these days... I should be turning my focus on what I normally do, and that is to seek information on how to make the best of what I'm dealing with, finding new ways to see my situation, and read more about what others do in the same. While I have sought information and such, I guess I've found it's not helped me as much as I'd hoped. Maybe that's why I'm distracting myself with all of the other crap.
I need to take about 20 paces back from FB, from Twitter, and from reading all the political crap out there. Yes, I want to be informed as these elections coming are VERY important, but there's so much hate and nastiness in what people say these days that I find it hard to read and maintain a good, happy, frame of mind. So that's one thing that I need to change.
Another thing is to avoid people on FB who seem to make it their life's mission to comment with negative crap on my posts. I mean, damn... grow up. If you don't like my point of view, disagree with me, etc... then just move along to the next post in the feed and ignore mine! It's not THAT hard to do, is it? And I know one person in particular is doing it.. because he can. He doesn't try it in person, which I find rather amusing, but he gets down right offensive and rude when he's hiding behind his computer. I normally just shrug it off and roll my eyes when he does this, but lately he's taken to insulting some of my friends in the military, including veterans, and that's where I draw the line. At any rate, this is the sort of thing that happens when you post anything of actual substance on social media. Here's a fact: People aren't really interested in what you think, feel, or believe. What people are actually interested in is cocooning themselves in SAFE, mindless prattle that means nothing.
And yes, this is relatively isolated to one particular person, so that makes things easy for me in terms of what to block him from. Honestly, I'm not sure that FB allows that anymore, blocking certain people from particular posts. Either way, enough of the BS on FB. If I find a way to block him from my posts.. it's done.. ACCESS DENIED!
Now that I got THAT off my chest...
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