Seriously?

Discussing depression is depressing.  Still, it has to be addressed, faced head on, and conquered eventually.  I'm so freaking depressed that looking up ways to help yourself with depression is, well, also depressing, leaving me to give up quickly due to lack of interest.

Seriously?

I think this is the first time I've ever been completely frustrated with my state of mind.  Under normal circumstances I can look whatever I'm dealing with in the eyes and stare it down into submission.  This time, not so much.  Maybe I've just let it go for too long.

I'm completely at a loss as to how to deal with this now.

Dammit.

Funny how that works.

Weirdness with one of my Twitter accounts, and I've made another backup.  Just in case.  Overall, it's been a weird weekend, a weird Christmas, and... I guess that's just life.  I spent most of my free time on my Twitter alter accounts and just perused the weirdness outside my own life.  Did it help?  Not sure.  But it is fun.

Going off the diet taught me that a) I shouldn't have, and b) I should try low carb again.  Both are true, I promise.  So I'm heading back to the Atkins program (likely tomorrow) and seeing how it goes this time around.  I'm still in awful pain from "eating normally" since Christmas Eve and over the weekend.  BAD move on my part, and I suspect the culprits are sugar and too much wheat.  Honestly, it could be a combination of a lot of things, but it's awful and painful.

Still trying to survive the onslaught.

Oh well.

Such is life on planet earth.  tomorrow is another day.